Where have you gone, Calvin Schiraldi?

Our new closer struggled in relief at Pawtucket this evening. From the Globe:

Curt Schilling's first relief appearance looked a lot like his last start: not very good. The injured Red Sox ace pitched a sloppy ninth inning in Triple-A Pawtucket on Thursday night as he began his conversion from starter to reliever. The 38-year-old right-hander allowed two runs -- one of them earned -- on two hits, striking out two.

Jesus. What the hell are we going to do with the damn pen. I don't blame Theo or Francona. The pen just has not done its job, especially the two firebugs, Foulke and Embree. Now, I am incredibly grateful to those guys for the title last year, but c'mon! Dammit, I am going crazy following this team.
What's that you say? We are in first by 3 games? So? 18 in '78. Sigh. Paranoid freak, I know.